The truth(?)

There's... something I been hiding and been keeping a secret for a little while now... something I've only told a few of my close friends about... but since some family members have found out about my secret and haven't had a nicest react to it, and because I have also been developing depression and a lot of negative thoughts to the point where I feel super unhappy and I don't feel like doing anything productive... I think it's time I told you all my secret...

Deep breath... I... am a cross-dresser... /)~(\

And for those who don't know what that means, a cross-dresser is a person who wears clothing intended for the opposite sex... And I am one... It's not that I wish I was a girl or something like that (though thoughts about that have crossed my mind a couple of times) it's just... something I like to do, it's hard to explain... >~<

While my friends are completely fine with me doing this, my family, however, aren't... especially my mother who is very religious, and says that what I'm doing goes against the bible and that I'm apparently being influenced by "demons" and stuff like that... ¬_¬

But that's not the only thing that's bothering me... according to something I read online, a possibility to why I'm doing this
is because of a mental illness called "Gender Dysphoria" which apparently occurs mainly in people who are unhappy with where their life is going... Now I'm not a stranger to mental illnesses, in fact, I have high-functioning autism. But... the thought of this stuff applying to me is starting to make me think I'm some sort of looney and I'm not even human... TT~TT

I'm not sure what to do... I honestly kind of feel like... gulp ending my life... but I'm not going to do that because I don't have the guts to do that, I have ideas I'd like to work on and I know a lot of people would get upset if I did... I just... don't know what to do... O o >-< o O

I've always believed that people should be whatever they want to be, as long as they aren't hurting themselves or others, but now... I'm not sure what to believe...

I'm super stressed out about all this and I feel the need to speak to a therapist... can any of you guys give me some help, support or advice? Because I would really appreciate that...

(Also one more thing, if you think that I'm a creep now for being a cross-dresser and talking about this stuff... un-watch me right now, you aren't helping or welcome here... >_>)